A/N: Not betad yet :)
Chapter 50
Misha breathed
harshly, Joni sat on top of him and was currently kissing his neck
while
caressing the blond’s chest with his hands. Joni was definitely
becoming bolder
and Misha had to struggle not to let his own lust take the best own
him, the
desire to take the control and just… go with it. Joni moved to
kiss his lips,
gently at first then more demanding. Misha groaned he felt himself
trembling
and his hands roamed Joni’s naked upper body, squeezing him
closer and perhaps
too harshly because it made Joni break the kiss.
“I’m
sorry…”
Misha panted and Joni smiled softly before planting a kiss on his cheek.
“It’s
okay,
just… gently… slowly… Let me be in charge, for
now.” The brunet asked looking
in his eyes. Misha sighed and nodded. “It will be worth
it,” Joni promised and
softly moved his hand on Misha’s cheek to his neck and further
down to his
chest. The brunet felt the steady, fast beat of his boyfriend’s
heart, seeing
the lust behind the blue eyes and knowing how much Misha had to
struggle to
keep himself in check. It had been a long wait after all and though
Joni still
didn’t feel he could relax enough to go all the way, he could
offer another
kind of pleasure to the blond.
He caressed
Misha’s nipples, leaning down to kiss them and lick around the
area. Misha
moaned, his hips moved and Joni felt the blond’s erection. There
was a passing
feeling of familiar fear that the past had caused. Reminding himself
that it
was just an instinct that Chris had caused and had nothing to do with
present,
Joni was able to relax and move further with his plan.
Joni ran his
hand carefully along Misha’s stomach, stopping at the waistband
of his trousers
before looking up at his lover’s face. “Joni, you know that
you don’t have to…”
Joni pressed his finger on Misha’s lips to shush him.
“I want
to touch
you,” The brunet replied. “If you let me?”
“I think
my body
is answering on itself…” Misha couldn’t help but to
grin and Joni smiled.
“Yeah…”
The
younger man moved his hand lower, feeling the enlarged member through
the
fabric and it’s the eager response to the touch. Joni gave a
couple of slow
strokes to it and Misha closed his eyes feeling his hips move,
desperately
seeking for more contact. He didn’t remember ever feeling so
horny, it was
almost torture. Joni started to pull his pants down to reveal his cock
and
Misha reached out to touch Joni’s arm. “I know it may feel
weird, but… I don’t
want you to touch me now, okay? Just… let me…”
Misha looked
at
Joni’s face, lowered his hand and nodded. He would have wanted to
touch his
boyfriend, wanted a lot of things, but he needed to allow Joni to
control the
situation and decide what to do. He allowed the younger man to undress
him
fully, watching as Joni then stood up to strip himself slowly down to
his
boxers. There was a coy smile cast in Misha’s direction and the
blond
unconsciously licked his lips while admiring the show. Joni climbed
back over
the bed, kneeling beside him.
The brunet
touched
Misha’s hot throbbing flesh, smoothed his hand over the velvety
length, feeling
as his cheeks begun to burn. It was the first time he touched Misha
this
intimately while being sober. There was certain shyness; it was strange
and
fascinating feeling. Misha’s heavy breathing and his own, Joni
swallowed as he
wrapped his hand around his boyfriend’s cock, his thumb caressed
over the
leaking head and their eyes met briefly. Misha’s eyes were dark
blue from lust
and his eyes followed keenly his every move, still the blond was able
to keep
still and Joni didn’t feel any fear. His memory brought him back
on their first
time and he touched Misha with almost the same fascination as he had
then.
“You’re
so
beautiful, Misha…” Joni whispered, again glancing up at
the blond with that coy
smile resting on his lips. Misha smiled back at him, grinning a bit.
“You
have no
idea how amazing you look right there…” Misha murmured
with hoarse voice,
aching to touch the brunet. Such sweet torture it was.
Joni started
to
move his hand slowly over Misha’s length, studying the movement
of his hand.
“You’re very… impressive…here…”
He whispered again glancing at him from under
his brows. “Of course… you know that…”
Misha grinned
widely. “Don’t mind hearing… love to hear you
talk…” He said and had to bit his
tongue in order not to start dirty talking himself. He definitely
didn’t want
to freak Joni out now.
Joni continued
to caress Misha, speeding up the movement, feeling as the organ
hardened
further in his hold and Misha groaned in delight, bugging his hips
upwards. Unidentified Russian words made out from his
lips that caused Joni to grin and feel bolder in his actions. Watching
Misha,
how he panted and twisted beneath him, his lips parted, struggling so
that he
wouldn’t take the situation in his own control… Joni
started to feel himself
getting turned on, he felt hot all over and his body responded. He
almost felt
surprised when he felt himself hardening, when he started to feel the
need of
contact, when the idea of leaning towards Misha to get some friction
entered
his thoughts.
It felt so
confusing, good kind of confusing and on the other hand… He
smiled, feeling
almost embarrassed when he thought that Misha could be able to see his
excitement, worry of losing the control, arousal made him so
vulnerable… What
would Misha think?
The blond felt
the change of the rhythm, the slowing motion, and through lust clouded
eyes he
could see the confusion on the brunets face as well as his…
erection through
his underwear, Misha smiled, feeling even more turned on. Hope…
Joni was able
to feel pleasure from doing this and he wanted to make him see, wanted
him to
feel good all over the way he felt himself. And it was so delicate,
just one
wrong word or move could make Joni draw back.
“Nothing
excites
me more than to see you turned on…” Misha whispered
studying the younger man’s
expression carefully. “Nothing except… being allowed to
bring you pleasure… I
am at your mercy, Joni… But I would really desire to touch you,
if you let me.”
“It’s
not part
of our homework…” Joni whispered after a moment of
silence, blushing slightly.
“It’s
what you
want to do, what you feel ready to do… Would you like me to
touch you?”
Joni
hesitated;
he was quiet and nipped his bottom lip before leaning closer to kiss
Misha.
“I-…
just… “He
breathed little nervously.
“It’s okay, I
won’t do anything that you don’t
want to…” The blond assured, brushing his lips gently on
Joni’s cheek and his
lips. He listened Joni’s breathing, licked his lips and closed
his eyes
relishing in the pleasure that the brunet offered. Misha caressed
Joni’s back
slowly feeling as the tension on his back slowly relaxed, there was a
soft
sigh, the younger man buried his face against his neck and slowly
removed his
hand before settling more firmly on top of him. Joni’s erection
brushed against
his own, causing Misha to moan and he wanted to move his hands lower,
squeeze
those firm, round buttocks of his boyfriend but knew that he
shouldn’t. Joni
kissed his neck, his eyelashes tickling his skin and slowly the brunet
started
to move, rocking his hips slowly against him.
Misha bit his lip, squeezed
his eyes close, his
fingers holding onto Joni’s warm hips, doing his best not to
squeeze too hard.
This was a big step, he didn’t want to ruin it, it felt amazing
and lit the
desire for more. Misha wanted to pull Joni’s pants down, feel the
hot, hard
flesh against his own fully and not just through the fabric, in his
mind he was
undressing Joni, but he wouldn’t allow himself to take the
control in reality,
however difficult it felt to restrain himself.
“H-how does this
feel?” Joni asked with low
whisper, still moving slowly against him.
“Good, very
good…” Misha whispered back,
opening his eyes to look at his lover, seeing the shy look that he
returned. Joni’s lips were red and
inviting to be kissed
and so Misha did as gently as possible, while slowly parting his legs
to allow
Joni settle between them, bending his knees on each side to hold him
close but
not by force.
Joni moaned, this way the
contact felt even
better. The kiss deepened and he allowed his instincts take over,
rocking
against his boyfriend forgetting everything else. Pleasure, it felt so
good and
he wanted more, the kisses grew more heated as they rubbed against each
other
with greater need. Misha allowed him to control the pace, the rhythm
and the
whole process and it was everything Joni needed to let go of the
restrains that
otherwise easily held him. He wasn’t really thinking much,
nothing except how
he felt, how Misha felt and how close they were. When Joni reached his
orgasm,
it surprised him as much as it did Misha, he yelped in shock of the
sudden
intense wave of pleasure that soiled his boxers. Misha felt the warmth
and the
moistness of Joni’s seed through the fabric and held the
quivering body on top
of him, still grinding against him and groaning in delight as he too
reached
his own bliss.
Joni smiled shyly as he
finally brought his
head up to meet with Misha’s eyes. “Ups…” He
whispered and released a quiet
bout of laughter, both surprised and delighted of what happened, small
grip of
embarrassment that had no real reason as Misha would have assured him.
Misha
grinned back at him, brushing his hand through his hair as the sign of
deepest
affection, reaching up to kiss the brunet’s forehead.
“Ups,” he
repeated with amusement, lazy after
experiencing such satisfaction.
“What will Pauliina
say?” Joni wondered and
chuckled as he laid his head over Misha’s chest. “This
wasn’t part of the
plan…”
“Maybe she will give
us detention…” Misha
joked, continuing to play his fingers in Joni’s hair.
“Well… we didn’t really
break any rules of our homework… I kept my mouth and my hands
above your
waist”, he grinned continuing to stroke Joni’s back.
Joni was quiet for a moment,
wasn’t sure what
to feel, both glad yet confused of whether or not he should
feel… guilt? “Now I’m
all sticky…” he muttered chuckling with embarrassment and
slowly sat up. “I
should go and wash…” He said and as he was about to stand
Misha reached gently
for his hand.
“This was amazing,
Joni…” The blond said
grinning.
”Yeah…” Joni agreed quietly, with a small smile
playing on his lips before he
stood up.
“I suppose asking to
shower with you would be pushing
my luck?” Misha asked carefully and smiled when Joni turned to
look at him.
“Perhaps next
time…” The brunet offered quietly
and Misha nodded.
“One step at a
time,” the blond agreed and laid
back down on the bed as Joni left the room. The Russian sighed
contently; they
were really heading to the right direction.
**^^**^^**^^**
Chris’ hair was short,
shaved and Adam thought
that he would have had difficult time to recognize his friend from a
busy
crowd. Chris had had long hair such a long time, almost the entire of
his adult
life. It wasn’t only the short hair, he still carried bruises on
his face and
his nose looked broken.
“Having difficulties
to recognize me?” Chris
asked once Adam sat across from him. “Don’t look so
shocked. Now I look like a
real inmate, right?” He grinned slightly. “Thought about
getting tattoo’s as
well, what do you think?”
“Uh…”
Adam wasn’t sure how to response, he was
shocked and lost with words. “H-how are you feeling?” He
managed to ask.
“I’ll
survive,” Chris responded, smiling
slightly. “My attackers are in worse position, isolation I hear,
longer
sentence too.” Adam nodded slowly, he felt awkward and
wasn’t sure how to talk
to Chris.
“I’m sorry it
happened,” he said quietly then.
“No one deserves that, not even…”
“Someone who abused
his partner?” Chris asked
calmly, Adam almost looked frightened, or perhaps it was confusion over
his
bluntness. Chris sighed.
“One could say I
deserved what I got…” He said
slowly, looking at Adam’s reaction closely.
“Joni was shocked to
hear about this as well…”
“Was he?” Chris
asked almost lazily and smiled
little crookedly. “Does he think I blame him perhaps?” He
asked and saw his
friend shift little uncomfortably.
“Well, do you?”
“What on earth could
Joni have to do with
this?” Chris asked instead. “Surely he doesn’t know
other jailbirds, other than
me?” Adam was quiet for a moment
before
replying.
“No, I imagine
not… Joni has nothing to do with
this.”
“Of
course…” Chris nodded and straightened on
his seat, he took a small pause before continuing. “I had a lot
of time to
think while lying in the hospital.”
“And?” Adam
asked after it seemed Chris wasn’t
continuing.
“Well…
“Chris started. “I should let Joni go,
shouldn’t I?” He tilted his head and Adam felt a spark of
hope that his friend
meant what he was saying, that he finally realised it. “Tell Joni
that he
doesn’t need to worry about the pictures, I haven’t posted
them anywhere and…
this is where you come in Adam,” Chris leaned slightly forward.
“There are
copies, but as the sign of my… sincerity,” he smiled
slightly before
continuing. “He can have them and you may deliver the information
of how to
access them to him.”
“Where are
they?” Adam asked as calmly as he
could.
“I created an internet
backup file. I suppose
you don’t have paper and pen with you?” Chris asked lazily
and Adam shook his
head. “Well then, I hope you have a good memory.” He smiled
slightly. “So,
sugarsync.com, remember?”
“Sugarsync.com”
Adam repeated almost nervously
and nodded.
“And the email of the
account is
LehJon91@email.com, easy to remember, right? - Three letters of his
last name,
three from his first and his birth year, okay?” Again Chris gave
a lazy smile
to his friend.
“I remember,”
Adam whispered. “And the
password?”
“for7ever5JC, the
numbers are his birthday, and
you get how to remember the rest, don’t you?” Adam, who
felt slightly
uncomfortable, nodded.
“I think I
will,” he agreed.
“Good”, Chris
smiled slightly crookedly.
“And… there are
no other copies?”
“No. I swear on my
mother’s life,” Chris
answered and Adam again nodded slowly while repeating the user
information in
his mind in order to remember. “Tell Joni that… I regret
how things went; I
understand it could never be as sweet as it was in the beginning. I
would write
him a letter, but I suppose it’s forbidden,” Chris
shrugged. “I just… I still
have feelings… I wish I could go back to change some of the
mistakes I made…
Anyway, he shouldn’t worry; I wouldn’t want him constantly
looking over his
shoulder in fear of me.”
“You really mean
this?” Adam asked carefully,
he wanted Chris to be sincere, but after everything … could he
be trusted?
“Why do you doubt
me?” Chris tilted his head.
“Is it so hard to believe that I could change? That the abuse I
got made me see
things clearer?”
“I want to believe
you,” Adam answered.
“Then do.” Chris
kept the eye contact and after
a moment of silence Adam nodded.
“I’m
relieved,” Adam sighed then and smiled
slightly. “It will work out, Chris, we’ll get help for you
after this and…”
“And we can all return
to normal life, huh?”
Chris returned the smile with a slight grin. “Happily ever after
and all that
jazz…”
“It’s possible.
You’ve taken the first step by
realising your wrong doings and it’s an important step.”
“I suppose so,”
Chris grinned.
**^^**^^**^^**^^**
When Adam came to visit,
Joni was alone at
home, his siblings at school, his parents and Misha at work.
“This time I have good
news,” Adam smiled as
Joni led him to the kitchen.
“Oh?” Joni asked
with slight doubt in his
voice. “Want some coffee?” He added, already searching for
the coffee from the
cupboard.
“Sure, thanks,”
Adam nodded and took a seat
down.
“So… what is
the good news?” Joni asked and
placed a plate of cookies in front of Adam before searching for the
coffee
cups. In some ways it felt weird being alone with Adam, Chris’s
best friend and
on the other hand perhaps Adam was the best person to understand the
pain, Chris
had betrayed his trust severely as well.
“Chris seems to
finally understand that he did
wrong to you. He talked about the pictures and…” At this
Joni visibly tensed,
he turned to Adam leaning onto the kitchen counter.
“And?” He asked
carefully.
“Well, he told you not
to worry, he hasn’t
posted them anywhere nor does he intend to. He has online backup file
of them
and he gave me the needed information so you could access them and
destroy the
copies.” Joni was silent, he wasn’t sure what to think,
what to believe. He
took the coffee pot and poured the dark, hot drink for them both.
“He said he’s
sorry and that he regrets. He said you shouldn’t worry. He wouldn’t want you to worry.” Joni
still
didn’t say anything, he tried to process the whole thing in his
head and his
instincts screamed at him to not trust it and yet… He wanted to
be able to
believe it so desperately. After placing the coffee pot back and taking
the
milk carton from the fridge Joni sat down opposite to Adam.
“Why now?” He
asked. “It would make little
sense to believe he’s being sincere.”
Adam shrugged and took a
sip, thought about it
for awhile before replying. “He said he had a lot of time to
think at the
hospital, perhaps… Perhaps it simply opened his eyes?”
Joni recognised the
hopefulness behind Adam’s gaze and knew he wanted to believe
Chris’ ability to
change just as badly as he did. Deep down both of them must have known
that
this trust would be naïve to give and yet the desire to finally be
able to
burry the past was stronger.
“Perhaps…”
Joni finally replied with quiet
tone. “I want nothing more than to just… move on.”
“I know,” Adam
smiled. “And you can. Here…” He
took a small paper from his wallet and gave it to Joni. “I wrote
you the
information that Chris gave me concerning the pictures.”
“Thank you.”
**^^**^^**^^**
Joni sat in front of his
computer staring at
the paper with the information to access his painful past… the
key to destroy
it… If only it could be just that simple. He thought about what
Chris had told
him the last time they had spoken; it certainly hadn’t seemed
that he would be
willing to give up. Could he really change just like that? Could a
beating
change his ex or open his eyes to truth? Could it take away the
bitterness?
Deep down, Joni knew the answer, Chris was master of deception, after
all he
had been able to lie so well to his parents. Why would he believe he
was being
sincere now? – Because he wanted to believe it, because he wanted
to move on.
The choice of the email and
the
password felt
slightly troubling as well, Chris had created the email just for this,
just for
him and the password… forever JC…It was how Chris had
seen it, at least before,
being forever… Disturbing…
Joni was hesitant to check
if the file was
right, what if it was only another trick? And honestly, he didn’t
think that he
would be ready to see those pictures again. The connection to the
morning that
Chris had first forced himself on him was perhaps too strong and Joni
didn’t
want to relive those moments in his memory.
When Misha arrived, Joni
still hadn’t opened
the file. The blond found his boyfriend in front of his desk and smiled
when
walking closer. “Hi there,” Misha said before leaning
closer to kiss the
brunets cheek.
“Hi,” Joni
smiled back. “How was your day?”
“Fine. Yours? Did you
meet Adam?” At this Joni
nodded and stood up.
“Chris gave him
this,” Joni said and handed the
piece of paper to Misha. “It should contain the copies… of
the pictures…” He
said and folded his arms over his chest while observing Misha’s
reaction. Misha
checked the information on the paper finding the password rather creepy
which
made him frown before looking at Joni.
“That’s…
surprising”, he said. “What did Adam
say about this?”
“He just said that
Chris had… Well, that he’s
sorry and to prove that he’s sorry he wanted me to have these
back.”
“And the pictures were
in this file?” Misha
asked with doubt, finding it difficult to believe that Chris was
suddenly
willing to let them go. Joni shrugged.
”I haven’t checked… I’m… I don’t
know… it feels uncomfortable.”
“Want me to take a
look?” Misha asked calmly
and Joni gave him a hesitant, perhaps a bit frightened look.
“It’s…
embarrassing…”
“The pictures are of
you naked, right?” Misha
spoke with calm tone of voice. “Joni, I’ve seen you naked
and it’s far from
being embarrassing. Of course I would like these kinds of pictures of
you to be
private, only for my eyes and no one else.” He smiled slightly
and touched
Joni’s cheek.
“Not just
naked…” Joni murmured. “It’s…
posing…
like you know… showing… things…” He was
blushing and touching his neck
nervously.
“Well, I’ve seen
your… things as well,” Misha
smiled trying to remain calm, he didn’t like the idea of Chris
taking such
pictures of Joni, but he needed to act natural about it now. Joni
glanced at
him, smiling briefly before turning and taking a seat on his bed. He
drew his
knees close to his chest hugging them and looking back at his
boyfriend.
Perhaps in some way it would ease his mind if Misha would see some of
them, if
he wouldn’t judge him for them. “Can you promise that you
just take a quick
glance, to see if they are right? Then delete them. There might be
things you
really don’t want to see and I’d die if you saw them.”
Sex pictures? - Misha
wondered feeling himself
tensing slightly. It was a troubling idea, he didn’t know how
he’d react if he
saw Chris doing something to… “Nothing will explode on my
face?” He tried to
joke, chuckling nervously.
“Uh… I should
do this… This is too
uncomfortable…” Joni groaned dropping his feet’s on
the floor, about to stand
up.
“No, just stay where
you are. I’ll take a quick
look and then delete them”, Misha promised already taking a seat
in front of
the computer. He took a deep breath and typed in the address. Joni felt
his
stomach churn maybe this was a really bad idea? What if Misha would
start
despising him? He lied down on the bed, holding a pillow over his
chest, not
daring to look at Misha.
Misha wrote down the user
information and the
password, accessing the file. There were three different folders named:
sweet
18, birthday present and hotness. Misha gritted his teeth, his heart
beat
speeded up and he tried to guess the safest content. Finally he decided
to open
the sweet 18 file; there were 25 pictures of Joni, naked and posing
over a bed.
In first pictures the youth seemed very much amused, grinning at the
camera
kneeling over the bed and hiding his private parts, next pictures the
poses
changed and though Misha hadn’t indented to take a closer look,
it was
difficult not to. His cheeks grew hot and his pulse speeded up, indeed
one
could see every bit of Joni… It left him with bothering state of
arousal and
conflicting anger directed at the man behind the camera.
Misha cleared his throat and
closed the folder,
but the images still kept playing in his head.
“It was right,
wasn’t it?” Joni’s quiet voice
asked and Misha turned his face towards him. His boyfriend was lying on
his side
on the bed looking at him insecurely.
“Yes…”
Misha answered hoarsely. Sadness
overthrew the arousal, he felt sad for Joni and upset. Chris had taken
advantage of Joni so early on without Joni realising it. What else was
in those
folders, he wondered to himself. What else Joni didn’t remember?
He didn’t
really want to see what else Chris had photographed and with a heavy
sigh he
deleted the whole content of the file.
“Did you delete
them?” Joni asked and Misha turned
his chair to him.
“Yes, they are
gone”, he nodded watching Joni
carefully.
“You look at me so
strangely, do you despise me
now?” Joni asked quietly and slowly sat up.
“Of course not, I
admire you; you’ve come
through really well after all that. I guess it just really starts to
sink in
how much wrong he did to you and how long…” Misha stood up
and approached the
brunet who kept his eyes on him. Misha kneeled on the floor in front of
him,
smiling softly and bringing his hand on his lover’s cheek.
“I wish I would have
opened my eyes sooner, I wish I would have come and talk to you
sooner.”
“I guess there is no
point dwelling in what
ifs, it is what it is”, Joni replied and took Misha’s hand.
“Come here…” He
coached, pulling the blond on the bed, to lie on top of him. Misha
leaned to
kiss the brunet’s lips slowly and once he broke away from the
kiss Joni smiled.
“I feel relieved, so
incredibly relieved….”
Joni sighed, bringing his hand in Misha’s hair. “I’m
free, finally I’m free, we
both are!” He grinned and brought his head up to kiss Misha
again. “So this is
the time where you can gloat how you and dad were right and I was
wrong, but
for this I’m happy to be wrong,” Joni chuckled.
Misha gave a concerned look
to his boyfriend,
feeling unsettled over the situation. “What’s wrong?”
Joni asked and frowned.
Misha sat up slowly and Joni followed the example.
“What did Adam say
exactly? I mean what did
Chris say?” The blond asked and Joni tilted his head confused of
the worry, he
had expecting Misha to feel the same relief as he.
“That he understands
now, that he needs to let
me go and that he wouldn’t want me to worry. He gave that file to
show he’s
being sincere. I thought you’d be happy?”
“Of course I
am… If it’s true…” Misha said
quietly, reaching to take Joni’s hand.
“What do you
mean?”
“Don’t you think
that this is little bit sudden
and strange? Why now?”
“Because…”
Joni kept a small pause and
swallowed. “…because your plan worked, Chris understands
now, he won’t bother
me anymore. He understands. It’s over and we can move on.”
Misha saw how
desperately Joni wanted to believe it and he hated to be the one to
point out that
the danger hadn’t vanished yet, not just like that.
“I worry… This
might just be another game of
his, an attempt to gain your trust perhaps,” Misha shrugged.
“He is a sick man,
unless he gets real help, real therapy, we shouldn’t trust
anything he says.
It’s a bit random that he should decide to give the photographs
to you now, he
might have other copies as well and…”
“Don’t…”
Joni said, pulling his hand away. He
drew his knees close to his chest once more. “Don’t do
this… I want it over, it
has to be over.”
“Baby…”
Misha whispered. “I’m not attempting to
make you unhappy; I just want you to be careful.”
“You said it you
arranged the beating so that
it would help, then why-?”
“I never said you
could start trusting Chris,”
Misha reasoned. Joni gave him a hurt look and stood up. He paced in the
room
for awhile before sitting down in front of his desk looking outside.
Most
leaves had fallen from the trees, it was grey and rainy, such
depressing
weather.
“What do you expect me
to do then?” Joni asked,
keeping his gaze outside. “Keep worrying? Constantly looking over
my shoulder
in fear of what Chris might come up with next?” He turned his
gaze back to
Misha, his eyes glimmering slightly from tears he tried to fight
against. “I
can’t live my life like that, none of us can’t.”
Misha stood up and approached,
he stood next to Joni, lowering his hand on his shoulder gently rubbing
it. The
brunet looked up to him. “Can’t you see that this worrying
won’t help us?” He
asked. “Let’s just… Move on, okay? I can’t see
any other way.” Misha was quiet
for a moment.
“I just want you to be
careful, never trust
that man, promise? And if he ever tries to contact you, you tell me or
your
dad?”
Joni sighed and nodded
slowly. “I promise, if
you promise to let this subject go now? I don’t want to talk
about him anymore,
it’s… exhausting me.” Misha nodded and Joni stood
up. He wrapped his arms
around the blond and kissed his lips. “This is new start for us,
I want to live
my life with you,” Joni smiled. “And I want…
To… explore things with you…” He
grinned, raising his brow suggestively, while his hands travelled down
on
Misha’s back. Another kiss that caused Misha to moan.
“You do a good job in
distracting me”, Misha
whispered.
“Good”, Joni
smiled and again brushed his lips
against his boyfriends. “Then let’s go to your
place… I think I want some
undisturbed alone time with you… I need it…” The
suggestive look on the younger
man’s face, almost made Misha forget everything else. He
swallowed hard.
“You are teasing
me…” The blonde whispered with
hoarse voice.
“Not just
teasing… I hope,” Joni grinned and
Misha could feel himself hardening at the thought of what they could
do. “New
start, new life… I want to enjoy it…” Joni kept
whispering, his lips caressing
Misha’s neck.
“Then… we
better get going…” Misha said his
hand caressing Joni’s side. At that moment he too pushed the
thoughts of Chris
aside. Just as badly as Joni, he too wanted it all to disappear, but he
also
knew that it couldn’t, not this easily.
TBC.
A/N: Please review
, either
on shout box or the questbook where the review link leads to :)
Web published: January 23th, 2012.
My Secret Shore
© KOLGRIM